I had been hoping to blog more regularly this month than I've actually been able to do. Last month, I actually thought I was "getting better" - my headaches were less frequent than usual, and since a nasty cold had hampered my usual exercise regime and I wasn't running a couple of miles a day, I felt more energy than usual. But over the past couples of weeks I've had daily headaches, my knees feel like someone has kicked them and bent the joints backward, and I'm exhausted. Oh, and when people touch me it feels like they are leaving lasting bruises. Awesome. No amount of exercise makes me feel more energized, or warms me up lastingly from my usual 95-96 body temperature, or builds endurance. My brain feels like it's in a thick mist, and sometimes I can barely figure out how to drive to the familiar places I've been to dozens of times.
I think this most recent bout of feeling crummy started with what I like to call being "liturgical allergical." I played a concert at a Catholic church two weeks ago, and the minute I walked in and smelled the lingering incense, I felt a familiar feeling of nausea and a dreadful headache begin to seep from the back of my head forward to behind my eyes. And those locations have been playing ping-pong with this headache ever since!
I'm too stubborn to give in and take Excedrin or Advil right now. Once and for all, I would like to find out what's wrong with me - and no, Dr. Maier, I don't think that "depression" is the right answer or "acupuncture" is the right treatment.